These disciples are busy! We have lots to do and read. We are on the go and hope to enjoy much of what this season has to offer. And… I am still sad.
The sadness is odd. It is not all encompassing. It doesn’t direct my days. It doesn’t linger or paralyze.
It is more of a surprise. It comes at strange times and in unusual places.
On Black Friday Nigel, Tabitha, and I were at Kmart. While they were both in the cart [yes, they were!] I was tooling around just exploring.
We passed by a little basket lined with white fabric and embroidered with little airplanes. I’ve never purchased or longed for anything like it. I instantly thought, “That would be sweet in a boy’s nursery.” That thought was immediately replaced with, “I might have had a son!”
The tears swelled in my eyes and my breathing became ragged. My legs wavered some as a wave of grief passed through.
My coat cuff wiped away the tears. A few deep breaths restored my breathing. The cart steadied my legs. We made a left turn at steam cleaners and by the time we got to shoes I let myself be carried by the One I trust. Yoked with our great Redeemer every burden is lighter. He is faithful and true. He will never leave me or forsake me. His timing is perfect.
And His ways are not our ways.
And I am still sad.
The sadness is odd. It is not all encompassing. It doesn’t direct my days. It doesn’t linger or paralyze.
It is more of a surprise. It comes at strange times and in unusual places.
On Black Friday Nigel, Tabitha, and I were at Kmart. While they were both in the cart [yes, they were!] I was tooling around just exploring.
We passed by a little basket lined with white fabric and embroidered with little airplanes. I’ve never purchased or longed for anything like it. I instantly thought, “That would be sweet in a boy’s nursery.” That thought was immediately replaced with, “I might have had a son!”
The tears swelled in my eyes and my breathing became ragged. My legs wavered some as a wave of grief passed through.
My coat cuff wiped away the tears. A few deep breaths restored my breathing. The cart steadied my legs. We made a left turn at steam cleaners and by the time we got to shoes I let myself be carried by the One I trust. Yoked with our great Redeemer every burden is lighter. He is faithful and true. He will never leave me or forsake me. His timing is perfect.
And His ways are not our ways.
And I am still sad.
Dayspring Disciples 
It comes in waves and is often unexpected. I tear up in the midst of hymns. Last week it was “Count Your Blessings.” I heard Dad singing and it caught me off guard.I love you.
It comes in waves and is often unexpected. I tear up in the midst of hymns. Last week it was “Count Your Blessings.” I heard Dad singing and it caught me off guard.I love you.
Grief is very real. God bless you.
Grief is very real. God bless you.
Stacy, You have a beautiful way with words. I am sorry. Praying for you continually. Thanking God for your life and His great love for you and yours.Honored to know you,Linda
Stacy, You have a beautiful way with words. I am sorry. Praying for you continually. Thanking God for your life and His great love for you and yours.Honored to know you,Linda
Thank you for your love-laced encouragement. I am grateful for your prayers. It means SO much. God is faithful and is seeing me through. My sisters-in-Christ are a generous gift from Him.
Thank you for your love-laced encouragement. I am grateful for your prayers. It means SO much. God is faithful and is seeing me through. My sisters-in-Christ are a generous gift from Him.
I realize that this is late, but I am so sorry to learn of your loss. I will pray for you and your husband as you grieve.
I realize that this is late, but I am so sorry to learn of your loss. I will pray for you and your husband as you grieve.
I'm so sorry, Stacy. Thank you for sharing your heart. I felt like I was right there with you walking in that store…and I totally understand about how the grief comes by surprise at strange times. {HUGS}
I'm so sorry, Stacy. Thank you for sharing your heart. I felt like I was right there with you walking in that store…and I totally understand about how the grief comes by surprise at strange times. {HUGS}
I am sorry that you are still sad, yet I understand that grief comes and goes at the most unexpected moments. I know you are leaning into Him for comfort, and that is the best place, but I wish I could have been there to help you through it, too. You're still in my prayers. I love ya!
I am sorry that you are still sad, yet I understand that grief comes and goes at the most unexpected moments. I know you are leaning into Him for comfort, and that is the best place, but I wish I could have been there to help you through it, too. You're still in my prayers. I love ya!